When I was pregnant, I got so excited about the numerous benefits of breastfeeding. I read over and over about all the great things breastfeeding would do for mama and baby.
Even though I knew every baby (and every mama for that matter) is different, I wish I had known HOW different Josias and I were going to be when it came to breastfeeding. Maybe I could have prepared myself for what laid ahead.
Not for love or money would I give up the breastfeeding relationship I have with my son, but no matter how hard we tried, we just couldn’t cash in on all the benefits the experts talk about.
The most striking benefit that we could not seem to reap was regarding sleep. Many mothers expound upon the virtues of breastfeeding and how it helps them get more sleep. While that may be true for the masses, Josias and I just weren’t feeling it.
Around the second month, I got wise to this strategy and we started to fall into a rhythm. He started sleeping longer and longer, and by the third month, five straight hours of sleep was not outside the realm of possibility.
That was just about the time my maternity leave ended and I had to go back to work. I had visions of sleeping all night, being fully rested and being oh so productive at my job. Josias thought otherwise. He wasn’t going to take this new lack of access to the boob during the day lying down, so he pulled the ol’ reverse cycling manuever.
Right around the twelve month mark I was starting to feel at my wit’s end with exhaustion, so I began to research how I could gently encourage Josias to sleep longer. I tried a few of the strategies proposed by Elizabeth Pantley in her book, The No Cry Sleep Solution:
- I gave Josias a lovey to attach to instead of the breast (yeah, right!);
- I unlatched Josias over and over (and over) again as he fell asleep to get him accustomed to sleeping without the breast (nope, not having it);
- When he woke during the night, Papa tried soothing him back to sleep (absolutely not!);
- I put Josias on a separate mattress on the floor (this resulted in somewhat longer sleep in the initial hours of the night, but overall didn’t yield the result I was hoping for).
We decided that when Josias awoke and cried, Papa would try to soothe him back to sleep. If he cried for more than a few minutes or seemed really upset (I can usually tell from his cries if he’ll go back to sleep without breastfeeding), I would come into the room and breastfeed him back to sleep and then return to the other room.
Over the course of two or three months, Josias started sleeping for longer and longer periods of time, and when he did wake, he became less and less upset about not having a boob at his disposal. At 18 months he now sleeps through the night about 95% of the time, still sleeping with Papa. Sleeping through the night means going to bed at 8pm and waking anywhere between 4-6am.
Month 18 and Beyond
But, I wasn’t ready to ask him to stop night feedings any sooner, and more importantly, I didn’t think he was ready. I miss co-sleeping with Josias. As a mama who works full-time outside the home, I loved the time we spent together at night. But each mama and baby have to decide what is best for them and what works for them. I don’t know if or how long Josias will continue to sleep through the night. I also don’t know if there will come a time when we can resume co-sleeping.
What I do know is that we have found an arrangement that feels right for now. Josias is a happy, healthy boy, and we are doing the best we can, which is pretty darn good.
When did your baby start sleeping through the night? What was the experience like?
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